So this post was inspired by my lack of a meaning ‘relationship life,’ dont get me wrong, I love to meet new people, I love to date and have for the longest time, but i guess I’m just tired of peeps wanting me to settle for less. I am a hopeless romantic and i believe if you dream it will manifest. It doesn’t have to be a ‘Cinderalla Story’ just in the movies, it does happen in real life.
So here’s something for you Mr.Man 🙂
Dear Future Boo,
Lemme begin by telling you I am not in any way form or shape perfect. I struggle with my insecurities – I look at myself in the mirror and sometimes I am not in love with who gawks back. I think I’m super skinny, my hair is hella kinky, I have bugs under my eyes, I have them ‘Kalenjin athlete’ legs and my oh my wouldn’t I love walking around with at least a C cup.
I could go on and on…and on about what I don’t like about my appearance but you know what I can’t change a thing about me.
Aaand, I aint at all into all that plastic surgery ish,
heck I don’t want to end up looking like this.
On my journey of self-exploration, I am learning to embrace me and what I think are my flaws – physical flaws. I’m happy to explore all the woman that I am and deep deep deep down in my heart, I know am wonderfully created. When we finally settle down, maybe I’ll be over some of these issues but trust me new ones will crop up – possibly all day, erryday!
Thank you though, for whispering sweet nothings in my ear of how beautiful and gorgeous and cute I am. In your eyes I’m perfect, this means so much to me and it defo does a lot for my self-esteem.
We just be done with the easy part.
Hey, guess what? I am IMPERFECT. I sometimes struggle with my past. I have made mistakes and along the way I have hurt people, people I dearly love. I’m not proud of the mistakes I’ve made. Truth is I am damned ashamed of some of those choices. I can’t change the past, I can’t spend my whole life wishing I had turned left instead of right, chosen A instead of B; I can’t replay every mistake I have ever made. I read somewhere that regret is the most useless of all emotions, and so each day I try to waste no energy worrying about my past. Let’s leave it there, in the past.
I’m now older, I like to believe wiser and with you by my side I’m extra psyched to take on the big bad world. Thank you for appreciating my candor in this here letter that is me and all my craziness.
Now, all I ask of you,
Tell me I look great even when I have the worst flu looking like a mess,
Pretend to listen to my silly stories even if you are asleep
Be silly with me; don’t be afraid of making a fool of yourself with me
Let’s annoy peeps with our inside jokes
Let’s have a couples costume during Halloween ( I know a bit white)
I will get jealous time to time, don’t you dare rub it in my face
Put the toilet sit down!
Say ‘I love you,’ when I least expect it
Be enthusiastic over things you may not understand but super excite me
Give me deets about your day, not just ‘it was good’ Boring!!
Never ever keep me waiting, call it’s only polite
Send me a text saying how much you miss me
Send me a dirty text, once a while
I get drunk, please don’t hold against me if I do or say something nasty
Please forgive me, I may be slightly clingy at the beginning of the ‘us’
We both make mistakes, I mean we are human it’s OK to be angry
Hold my hand in public and don’t be afraid of PDA
I heart the little things but above all,
Love and Respect MY FAMILY and most importantly
Love me but REMEMBER TO LOVE GOD MORE.
Maybe I’ve met you, maybe your still a stranger to be found in the world or maybe our story will be a ‘six degrees of separations’ kind of love story, whatever the case I can’t wait to meet you.
It would be a serious understatement to say I can’t wait to meet you.
I can’t wait to know you. I can’t wait to kiss you. I can’t wait to love you.to say the thought of you excites me; being alone does not mean I’m being all lonely, I am just working on being the right woman for you and for us.
Wow, you stuck around this long!!
Your boo, baibe, sweetie, honey, whatever pet name you have finally settled on.
P.S. If you read this before ‘us’ im not too crazy give ‘us’ a chance.